Has your hope been deferred and your heart made sick?

I ask the question with the following scripture in mind:

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when the desire comes, it is a tree of life. — Proverbs 13:12 –

I’m not speaking to those who have it all together — or like to think they do. I’m not speaking to those who have had their dreams and hopes come to pass. This message is not for those who have a support group. Nor is it for those who have a church or a pastor who they can run to for some kind of instant edification. No, I am speaking to those like myself who have had their hopes put off, delayed and even at times, seem/feel forgotten and not cared for by God — even though we know we have not. I speak to those of us who often times find ourselves alone with our thoughts.

The past few years have brought many changes to my life. One of those changes is coming to the conclusion that aging gracefully is not one of my strong points. Seeing the things I had once hoped for — no longer within my grasp — has left me at times feeling empty, useless. 

One of my greatest dreams was to be a mother. That hope forever shattered now at soon to be 56 years old, is something I still question why God never allowed. 

Sometimes I even get a little bit bitter. For over two decades, I have questioned why I have had to deal with on going sicknesses with loved ones — at times being the care taker — when others had the opportunity of raising a family. Those same people now with grand children.

Now I face my own aging process. Dealing with health issues which sometimes makes it hard to think, to get motivated, to remember, to even just get up and face another day.  

So many times we have heard, hang on. Just hang on to God! For me the past few years as I have been trying to hang on to God, the words have rung hollow; empty, void of reason and understanding when due to some of life’s challenges, it has taken everything I have just to have a somewhat pleasant day. One where I’m not making my husband or anyone else around me miserable. When you have lost everything or darn near lost everything, you find the things you once deemed important, are no more worthy of the quest of trying to hang on. It takes energy to hang on to something. It takes stamina. What about when that strength and energy is gone?

Yes, what about it? More than likely you will not be one where others are using you as a fine example of what hanging on to the Lord looks like. Rather, they just might use you as an example (in the secrecy of their heart) as one who has given up, no hope, a real downer. *Sigh* I can say it because I’ve been there and done it to others. My senses have become very fine-tuned in knowing how others perceive me. Perhaps it is because I have made myself so transparent at times. Perhaps too transparent. That too takes energy and stamina. I believe when we come to the end of that, it is one of being in an almost state of apathy. For it takes one’s emotional/mental resources to even care.  

The other morning as I laid in bed, I began to think, another day of pain and fatique ahead. I know Lord, I’m suppose to be thankful. It is hard to be thankful when I can barely get my chores done, barely function and never want to leave the house.  And to think I have to hang on to You is just one more tiresome chore. Please forgive me, Lord.

Picture with me if you will, a person hanging off a cleft. They have been battered in so many ways, broken bones, bruises, bloody, etc. They have no strength. Now picture someone with great strength grasping them by the hand and saying, “Hang on.” 

Hang on? When you have no strength? Are you kidding me? I don’t know about you, but I find it would be cruel to expect someone who has lost all strength and ability, to hang on, when the One with all the power has the ability to pull you up. 

Another example: Picture a person deep in water, drowning. Someone throws them a life jacket. But the person has no strength to grasp hold. A life jacket just is not going to be enough. It would take someone fearless and mighty to jump in and save the person.    

If neither of those two examples were able to paint the picture for you, then how about this one: A little sheep battered and bruised with the shepherd telling it, “hang on to me.” Think it would happen that way? Hardly. That Shepherd picks up the little sheep and carries it.

Face it: we all have been told at one time or another, “just think positive.” Really? As if thinking positive thinking alone is enough to change circumstances? I don’t think so. Sometimes life deals blows. And whether there is any truth in the science or not, some of us are not born with the positive gene. So, we spin our wheels just trying a little bit harder. After all, isn’t that what everyone around us wants us to do? To just pick ourselves up by the boot strap and go on. I have learned that unless you have some kind of worth, no one really wants to be around you. That worth meaning the ability to make others smile and laugh, the ability to sing a song or bless whenever you can.  

I have no hopes in plans or/and dreams anymore. None whatsoever. Dreams I had in my youth are now just ghosts. Phantoms that remind me of many failures through out life. But it does not matter. The only hope I have and focus on anymore, is a hope in God. I no longer try and hang on to Him. I trust that He is hanging on to me.

For in and and of ourselves, we are worth nothing. We can do nothing without Jesus. In Him we live and move and have our being. Whatever that may be for any of us. None of us can take any kind of credit for anything. It all goes back to the mercy of God. 

I trust He is hanging on to you.

What gibberish is this?

What is going on when so many TV personalities start speaking gibberish on the air? The latest one being Judge Judy.

Are we to believe that all these people had strokes? Or is there something else at work here?

There is a rumor that government is causing it. Just saying.

200 Cows mysteriously die in Wisconsin

Respitory problems appear to be the cause. Something has also caused reproductive problems. Is this a test for possible oncoming depopulation/eugenics? Sounds crazy to you, right? Just remember, how crazy it sounded back in the 1940′s when the world heard rumors of Germany murdering over six million people. 

Nations have been depopulating their people for decades. Abortion is one way, starving people to death is another means. Injecting women with vaccinations causing them to never have children. Oh yeah. It happens. The eletists are the ones who help fund these things. The rich, the powerful and the famous on ALL political parties.

Wake up, people. If birds, fish and now cows are mysteriously dying, you must ask yourself what is going on and if it affects animals this way, when will it start affecting human beings? Government and military know what is going on. Count on it.

Someone is purposely poisoning the air and water. What else can it be?

Global warming? LOL!

http://www.wsaw.com/home/headlines/200_Cows_Die_in_Portage_County_113829069.html

Investigators are working to determine what caused the death of 200 cows in Portage County.

The 200 dead cattle were discovered on a farm field on 4th street in Amherst. Today, the bodies were taken out in semi-loads to be disposed of.

The Portage County Sheriff’s Department says the animals died of a virus that causes respiratory and reproductive problems.

The owner has been working with a veterinarian, who couldn’t be reached for comment today. Samples from the dead animals have been sent to Madison for testing.

Investigators say there is no threat to people or other animals. The Portage County Humane Society is investigating the cow deaths.

“No threat to people or other animals.”

 

We are just suppose to believe that? Just because somebody in a suit sits behind a desk spoon feeding us what they want us to know and keeping everything else secret? Believe what you want.

Does the John Wheeler Murder have something to do with the bird deaths?!

I’m sorry, but when I see men in white coats wearing gas masks going in neighborhoods where birds lay dead, I can’t but help NOT to trust government. Some thing is going on. Media will find things they want us to look at; the latest Hollywood whore in rehab, the newest spiritual movement through oprah or whoever, but folks, we need to pay attention.

YOU DECIDE about the following. Watch it in it’s entirety and if you believe there is something to this, then pass it on.

“Walking around in masks, do we need the same thing?”  

valano72: RED ALERT!!! BIRDS DEATH MYSTERY SOLVED!

BREAKING NEWS! Hundreds of thousands of dead birds, fish — even bats all through the world!

I do not want to be a sensationalist, but I am trembling even now. WHAT is going on? Is it worldwide government conspiring to bring death to it’s citizens? Is it man made or is it a God created event? Don’t anyone hand me any stuff about global warming. I just ain’t in the mood to listen to it. People open your eyes! We must stay alert and we must remember those in high places DO know what is going on!

You must see the photo below of a river in Canada that has turned green!   

See the map link below of thousands of dead birds, fish, 150 TONS of fish in Thailand — all dead, world wide. It appears most are concentrated in the United States.NOTE: It appears in the short time I have put this up, the map has been wiped clean!But I promise you there were dozens of events going on through out the world.

http://maps.google.com/maps/ms?ie=UTF8&hl=en&oe=UTF8&msa=0&msid=201817256339889828327.0004991bca25af104a22b

Hundreds of dead birds in Texas: http://www.ktre.com/global/story.asp?s=13787277

Swetish birds “scared to death” http://www.thelocal.se/31262/20110105/

Thousands of dead fish in Florida: http://www.wftv.com/news/26367953/detail.html

40,000 crabs in the UK: http://www.thestar.com/news/world/article/916503–40-000-crabs-join-slew-of-animal-death-mysteries

And if that isn’t enough, we have a Canadian river turning green! Photo and story gotten here:

http://news.nationalpost.com/2010/12/30/victoria-river-mysteriously-turns-bright-green/

Time for some of us to be getting back into our survival mode!

Is Mass Bird and Fish Die Off Connected to Government Testing?

I personally believe Alex Jones may be a sensationalist. However, sometimes the truth is stranger than fiction. And harder to accept. We have to remember, those birds did not fall out of the sky for no good reason. Someone knows the truth and we, the people, will never be told the truth. Heads up for what is to come upon the earth. It is not gonna be pretty. 

Government and our military is messing with us, folks. It really is that simple. It doesn’t  take a paranoid person to know this. Just someone who is not going to swallow the same kool-aid everybody else is drinking.

http://www.infowars.com/is-mass-bird-and-fish-die-off-connected-to-government-testing/

1977 Senate Hearing found that U.S. government had infected hundreds of cities with biological agents

A mass die off of birds and fish in Arkansas which prompted a response by U.S. Environmental Services has residents asking questions about the cause – could secret government testing be responsible for the carnage?

Around 2,000 red-winged blackbirds, as well as ducks, fell to their deaths over a 1-mile area of Beebe, Arkansas on Friday night. U.S. Environmental Services workers wore hazmat suits and gas masks as they picked up the dead birds on Sunday.

An area used by the birds to roost was unaffected, leading officials to conclude that the birds could not have died from an illness or have been targeted for poisoning. Lightning, fireworks and high-altitude hail have been forwarded as possible culprits.

“I’ve been to Iraq and back and not seen nothing like this,” Beebe resident Jeff Drennan told local Fox16 News on Sunday.

“You know my kids are out here playing and you don’t know, is it safe?” he added. “They’re walking around with chemical suits picking them up with gas masks and everything.”

In a related story, 100,000 fish were found dead in Northwest Arkansas. “They were found along a 20-mile stretch between the Ozark Dam and Highway 109 Bridge in Franklin County,” reports Today’s THV 11.

Electromagnetic scalar weapons that can artificially manipulate the environment could be responsible for the mass die offs. We know for a fact that over a decade ago the U.S. Military Industrial Complex was aware of and involved in the testing of such technology.

In 1997, Defense Secretary William Cohen stated, “Others [terrorists] are engaging even in an eco-type of terrorism whereby they can alter the climate, set off earthquakes, volcanoes remotely through the use of electromagnetic waves… So there are plenty of ingenious minds out there that are at work finding ways in which they can wreak terror upon other nations…It’s real, and that’s the reason why we have to intensify our [counter terrorism] efforts.”

The fact that illness or poisoning has been ruled out points to some form of secret testing being behind the mass die-offs.

The U.S. government has been repeatedly caught engaging in illegal bio-weapons tests over American skies that have maimed and killed not just animals, but humans. The history of US government biological testing includes deliberately infecting Americans with syphilis, malaria and other bacteriological agents.

From the 1950′s onwards, the U.S. government deliberately engaged in open air tests, spraying major cities like San Francisco and New York with Serratia marcescens and Bacillus glogigii. In 1955, the CIA also released a a bacteria withdrawn from the Army’s biological warfare arsenal over Tampa Bay, Fl in order to test its ability to infect human populations with biological agents.

In 1966, the U.S. Army dispensed Bacillus subtilis variant niger throughout the New York City subway system. 1977 Senate hearings on Health and Scientific Research confirmed that 239 populated areas had been contaminated with biological agents between 1949 and 1969, including San Francisco, Washington, D.C., Key West, Panama City, Minneapolis, and St. Louis.

In August 1994, residents in the Oakville, Washington area reported tiny blobs of gelatinous goo raining from the sky, and in 1997 residents in the Everett area of Washington State reported similar a phenomenon.

Given the history of governments across the world performing unwitting experiments on their populations, the number one suspect in such cases should always be government. Just a few months ago is came to light that in the late 1940′s, “American public health doctors deliberately infected nearly 700 Guatemalans — prison inmates, mental patients and soldiers — with venereal diseases.”

Indeed, the EPA’s own policy states that government and industry scientists can treat children as human guinea pigs in chemical experiments, which allows pesticides to be tested on mentally handicapped children and orphans.

Black birds falling in the dead of night — our government at work?

No one can tell me government does not know what caused this. Sounds like something out of a science fiction movie to me. If birds are falling out of the sky, there is a reason. 

http://www.cnn.com/2011/US/01/03/arkansas.falling.birds/index.html?hpt=T2

The thousands of birds that fell from the sky just before midnight New Year’s Eve in Arkansas likely died from massive trauma, according to a preliminary report released Monday.

The birds, most of which were dead when they were found, were red-winged blackbirds and starlings. They were found within a one-mile area of Beebe, about 40 miles northeast of Little Rock, the Arkansas Game and Fish Commission said.

Keith Stephens, a spokesman for the commission, said the birds showed evidence of trauma in the breast tissue, with blood clots in the body cavity and a lot of internal bleeding. All major organs were normal.

Poison gas?   

He cited a preliminary report conducted by the Arkansas Livestock and Poultry Commission.

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“Further tests will be done to rule out other causes, but the birds suffered from acute physical trauma leading to internal hemorrhage and death. There was no sign of any chronic or infectious disease,” the report said, according to the game and fish commission.

As of Saturday, between 4,000 and 5,000 birds had been found dead, said Stephens.

Karen Rowe, an ornithologist for the game and fish commission, said the incident is not that unusual and is often caused by a lightning strike or high-altitude hail.

A strong storm system moved through the state earlier in the day Friday. Officials also speculated that fireworks shot by New Year’s revelers in the area might have caused severe stress in the birds.

Fireworks my foot. Somebody knows exactly what this was and they aren’t talking.

Blackbirds do not normally fly at night, and it was not immediately clear what caused the odd behavior. Loud noises were reported shortly before the birds began falling, according to the game and fish commission.

For some reason, I am reminded of the old Beatle’s tune: “Black bird singing (falling) in the dead of night. Take these broken wings and learn to fly.”

“The birds obviously hit something very hard and had hemorrhages,” said Rowe.

Now that reminds me of Stephen King’s new book. Something about an invisible dome all around a little town. Birds crash and fall to the ground, etc. 

“Initial examinations of a few of the dead birds showed trauma. Whether or not this trauma was from the force of hitting the ground when they fell or from something that contacted them in the air, we don’t know,” she said.

In a seemingly separate incident, some 500 red-winged blackbirds, starlings and grackles were found dead in southern Louisiana in Labarre.

The birds showed no evident trauma, according to Jim LaCour, a veterinarian with the Louisiana Department of Wildlife and Fisheries. Samples have been sent to Wisconsin and Georgia for testing, he said.

Angel or demon? Can you see it?

A friend of mine has had this picture for years. At least twenty that I know of. For years I have asked him for a copy of it and he finally got around to sending it to me via email. I will update this when he gives me more history. Until then, can you see it? Angel or demon, which is it?

Chile Quake Eyewitness “I saw the Sky Changing Colors!”

Is it the work of God or is it the work of deceivers? Think — if we are in the endtimes (and I believe we are) then there will be great signs and wonders that will not be of God. If not of God, then who or what?
And if by man, what does he want to accomplish by such deception?

superiorgreen:

A couple years back, China had a great earthquake. This is what they say just minutes before the earthquake hit: