Redeemed Hippies' Place

The Reason for this Place — September 2011

This blog originally began three years ago. It was to be a discernment blog. You can go here to see it’s original intent:

http://redeemedhippiesplace.wordpress.com/reason-for-this-site/

But things have changed now. This is not to say that I never again will put up a post that I believe should warn the sheep. I will, if need be. Because if I have learned anything the past few years it is this:

There is an apostate church with many apostate preachers/teachers/apostles/evangelists/pastors hidden in it. Thanks to the many discernment ministries out here, they are being exposed for what they are — wolves and liars. The people who run these blogs have been some of the most honest and caring people I have ever met. They are always on the front lines and they take fire from those who want to continue to not test things and follow wolves and liars. I will stand shoulder to shoulder with these dear soldiers of truth any day. I have been extremely blessed to meet them. They have done more than just teach me on how to discern. They have showed me love, compassion and much patience. Much much patience.

As anyone who has come here long enough knows, I am not just “bold” — I have a big mouth sometimes. Impulsive, quick to cut down instead of build up. That has been my way. But it is not God’s way.

A few days ago, a remarkable thing happened to me. Something that the enemy of my soul meant for evil — God used for such good! I can not tell you the details, but I can tell you this much: There had been a great misunderstanding. A misunderstanding that I could not even discuss it for at least a day or so. The words just could not come out of my mouth. I was speechless.

Finally I was able to begin to try and communicate. I called the oldest friend I have. She knows me better than anyone, next to my husband. She is the one who prayed for me to come to the Lord in 1976. I poured out my heart to her explaining all that was going on in me. Never being one who has a lot to say at times, she just listened. Then she prayed. That is when it began to happen.

As she was praying, I began to see long thick black tentacles all tangled up in my head. I knew immediately what they represented. These tentacles were everything I have taken in the past few years in learning to discern and desiring to warn others of the occult invasion in the church. Not only church matters, but also political and social matters.

Oddly a peace began to come over me as my friend was praying. I began to see these tentacles unwind and flee from my head. It was the greatest peace I have ever experienced in my life. I can only compare it to the very same thing that happened the night I called out to Jesus back in February of 1976.

The next morning, I still had that peace. I came to this blog and began to poke around in it here and there. What I began to see upset me. Some of the things I had been focusing on were things I did not want to give my attention to anymore. Things of great importance, but yet, things I could not do anymore. God began to show me He has others who are called for it in such a way that they glorify Him in doing it, whereas I have not. But the worst thing I laid my eyes upon was the way I had spoken to others at times. ”Don’t come back here, or I will chew you up and spit you out!” Somehow those words were very strange to me and yet it was I who had spoken them. I began to see other things I had spoken. I was ashamed. Greatly ashamed. Yet, the woman who spoke those words seemed to no longer exist. She was gone! I say it with excitement because again, it was just like the morning after I was born-again. The old had passed away and behold a new thing!

Even though a new thing has began, I still am accountable for the words spoken out of my mouth. Words of wrath, anger, sarcasm and sometimes just out right hate. I have asked God to forgive me and He has. Now I ask you, the reader, to forgive me. There is no excuse for such behavior from a woman of God. None whatsoever. And if you are one I have hurt, I am deeply sorry. So very sorry. I hope you can find it in your heart to have mercy for me when I had none for you.

It has been very hard for me to write the past year or so. My thoughts all jumbled up going off in every direction. Honestly? I thought I was at the beginning of Altzimers. It runs in my family. I lived with that horrible thought for at least the past year. It never once occured to me it had anything to do with what I was focusing on. Not until the tentacles of all I had learned began to unwind and flee from me. So here I am precious one, pouring my heart out to you in words that hopefully make sense. God has done this thing for me!

I confess another sin: I have not been in the Word of God as I should have. After my mother’s death two years ago, it seemed impossible to do so. (I will not go into detail at the moment – that makes for another writing for another time.) That has been my greatest mistake. It is the Word of God that brings life, conviction and truth. Yet, I became afraid of it, believing I could never again read it after my mother died. I could not trust myself to discern His word. It never occured to me that it is He who grants the reader understanding, for in and of myself, I can mess things up so easily.

I do not know what the future holds. I just know that God has began a new thing and He is giving me a second chance. My heart’s desire is not only to see others come out from among the wolves and liars, but to encourage others in such a way that brings life.

If you plan on sticking around, know that I would love to have you. If not, that is ok, too. Either way, may God show you exactly what HE wants you to be reading and studying in the days to come. Please just do not get tangled up with the cares of the world and things to come. After all, He IS on the throne.

And for those of you still in the discernment ministry: I have much respect, admiration and love for you. I salute you. You have given of yourselves that few will ever know what you have had to put up. Where would we be without you Bereans who actually take the time to do your homework and test every thing? You are very much needed. I’m almost certain this will sound silly, but your fellowship to me has been like that between Dorothy and the scarecrow. Her affection to him was greater than that she had for the others. My affection for you has been and always will be one of much warmth, camrederie and love.

Thank you all for your love and patience.

Sincerely,

Redeemed Hippie (aka Brenda)

Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. — Philippians 4:4-8 –