If you could pick just one song that best described your life, what would it be? Mine would be Judy Collins, “Both sides Now.” Even as a teenager listening to it, it had a sense about it that made me feel much older than I was. Now a few decades later, it still has the same impact on me — even more so. The words, “old friends are acting stange, they shake their heads, they say I’ve changed,” ring true. I have changed. Being weak in body, spirit or soul changes a person. It makes us a stranger to those who may have remembered us differently in our younger days when we had strength and stamina — or/and the resourses to help others. The words, “So many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way,” speak the greater part of my life. Unfortunately, I am not one of those people who have been blessed with an ability to bounce back after or during a rough time. My greatest strength — empathy — has also been my greatest weakness.
It’s a song of youth. One of seeing the world in rose colored glasses. Believing you know everything and finally later in life, seeing you really know nothing at all.
We believe anything and everybody when we are young. Only to grow up and realize so much is really a delusion.
Without sounding melodramatic: I really don’t know life at all.